I did Darkmoor! It wasn’t pleasant, but I did it!
Sierra had offered again and again to help me with it, but it was too intimidating. It took her a lot of pushing. I guess she won in the end. Not because of her arguments, because I can think of plenty of terrible things to answer the question “what’s the worst that could happen” with. I won’t list them, because it upsets people. However, the point is that I shouldn’t let my fears win. It’s incredibly stupid to not do things simply because you’re afraid. Fears only grow bigger if you don’t deal with them. They’re not going to go away simply because you choose to ignore them.
So with Sierra’s Storm as hitter, my Storm, Death and Myth made it through Darkmoor. My memory of the whole ordeal is growing hazy already, but I’ll write down what I remember anyways. The first battle went well. That’s the one I’ve practised before, so it was familiar. In the two other battles, we ran into some trouble.
Twice, some of my wizards just ran through the enemies instead of joining the battle circle. That’s caused by lag, and has been pretty common for me since the update. It’s pretty funny actually. It’s like you’ve turned into a ghost. My wizards are on auto-run when they join the battle circle, so they just end up running into the wall behind the enemies. I would have many concussions, if such a thing hurt as much in game as it does irl. I’m speaking from experience, as I actually have had a concussion at one point because of running into a wall.
The one thing we should have done differently would have been the deck set-up. Sierra wanted to just do the first battle, then set up decks for the second battle and so on. This meant I couldn’t collect the right TC to fill the decks. I’d have had so many different blade and trap options if I’d just have filled my decks ahead of time. I suppose Sierra was either afraid I would back out, or really eager to see “Bob” (as she calls Yevgeny) again. I also could have trained elemental trap on Stormy and maybe on Myth/Death too. Thirdly, I wouldn’t have made the mistake of putting prisms in my deck instead of dispels. Ahead of time, my stress levels would have been lower and, as such, I would have been quicker and more precise while filling my decks. By doing it in between battles, the risk of me doing something stupid increased dramatically.
I had a few minor panic attacks that I got under control fairly quickly (proud of that). If you don’t know what a panic attack feels like, imagine your heart racing, being unable to breathe, losing all feeling in your hands and arms, and being afraid you’re going to faint/die soon. I also cried a fair amount, but I’m a cry baby, so that’s nothing special.
In the Malistaire battle, the minions didn’t quite want to die at first. Who can blame them? Stormy died once, because he’s so handsome he attracts unwanted attention. He doesn’t have to cast any spells to draw enemy attacks to him; enemies just naturally favor him. Ever heard that theory that minions always attack the person opposite of them in the circle, unless someone attacks or heals to draw their attention? Yeah, not true with my Storm around. I’ve always thought it’s because he’s so handsome. Of course they’re looking at him when they’re casting spells, he’s a cutie! I’m happy to announce those days may be over now, because Stormy got the ugly Malistaire hat! Now nobody can see his handsome face, woohoo! :D
In addition to the Storm hat, Myth got Mali’s robes from the chest. Sierra was totally right that they look weird on girls… I stood inside the chamber for a long time after Sierra left, thinking about how many crowns I am ready to sacrifice for this. I mean, if I’d spend enough, these wizards would never have to do Darkmoor ever again. That would be awesome! But it would also mean I wouldn’t have crowns to spend on eventually stitching that ugly hat to make my Stormy look like his handsome self again… Choices, choices! I gave up after I reach the 500 crowns mark in the chest.
So how do I feel about Darkmoor now? I still think it’s impossible for me to ever solo the second and last battle. It’s just way too confusing for me to do it alone on 4 accounts. Sierra said I did great. She’s blaming our decks for how confusing the last battle was for me. She set them up for me, which I am very grateful for. Making decks is one of my least favorite things ever. It just gets confusing when you have more than one wizard, both while building the decks and while actually in the battle. Simple battles, where I just have 3 wizards blading the 4th and trapping the boss, are easy for me. But having to think about prisms and doom and whether to do myth or storm traps gets too much for me. I’m not all that good of a multitasker to be honest.
Do I feel glad it’s over? Yes! We DID get to the end. Stormy only died once. Sierra didn’t shout at me. It didn’t take 27 hours to do it. It’s done.
Do I feel more confident now? No. It just showed me I can’t do it alone. This run didn’t take away my fears. I will be just as clueless and terrified next time, if there ever is a next time.
Do I feel grateful? YES! Sierra is awesome for many reasons, but especially because she so patiently allows me to be me. She put up with me complaining about not being able to do Darkmoor. She didn’t get mad at me for refusing to do it with her. And then she actually went in there with me. I want to somehow pay Sierra back, but nothing I can think of is good enough. Time to start worrying about that, I suppose!
Worrywart signing off ;)